a war between the vanities

2005-10-16T13:21:00.000+08:00

KIMBERLY!! IF I SEE YOU HERE ONE MORE TIME!! TALKING TERRIBLE NONSENSE!! YOU DIE!! AHAHAA!!! AND I DONT LOVE SHANTAL!! AAHHAA!! SHE LOVES AUGUSTINE!! AHAHAA

2005-10-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

2005-10-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

2005-10-01T21:28:00.000+08:00

hi there

2005-10-01T11:53:00.000+08:00

GRISELDA JOHN PATRICK LOVE CHAN YUE SHAN SHANTAL!

2005-10-01T11:37:00.000+08:00

HELLO GRISELDA!! ((:
KIMBERLY HERE!
WHASHASH!

2005-10-01T11:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO GRISELDA!! ((:
KIMBERLY HERE!
WHASHASH!

2005-09-27T21:17:00.000+08:00

today was english final year exam. wow! it was preety much ok la. except for the part where i used 3 packets of tissue today!!! that so crazy man. wth. my nose kept running. cant stop. damn. hope my next paper got no more tissues man. haii.

orh wells. went off with jermine today. hms. fell down on the escalator?! got this huge wound on my leg. it hurt a bit. but im not the type that crys. anyways. some ppl came into the toilet when i was cleanning my wound. jermine went to buy plaster! hahas. it took 3 plasters to cover the wound! big eh?! hahaa.

went home. put one big damn plaster on my poor wound. could see some white stuff. should be tissue. hahas. msged my close friend on the fone. was an interesting thing to do. read a book. and now is slacking at the computer

no time to study these few days. dnt project havent finished yet. got to stay back after skool. damn. skool finishes early on friday! at 11.30! hahaa. damn happy. could use it to study?! i should be doing something bout my studies too. i just cant see to do that magic i did last year. hmphh.

anyways

i think ive been neglecting my friends lately. and i just do it unexpectedly. hahaa. it just comes to me like that. i cant believe myself. im sorry you guys if i did such a thing to you . i guess i just cant hang around the same ppl always ya? ive got to mix more! but i cant. cause then ill be letting the close friends drift. soon well be far. i just dunno!!

orhwells. my bro got a damn new fone.! fcuk la. he got 3 fones in 1 yr. and im stuk with this fone!!! well. i guess i still love my fone!! whahas. ok. shall end here. ive got no mood for riting more. my eyes just fell like closing!!

i love the times
where youre always by my side
now youre lost. with another one
whom you claim to be your right
when will you be by my side
again
making me feel like your right

griselda.9.34

2005-09-25T14:47:00.000+08:00

feast day dinner was damn nice man. the makan was super great. i had to come super early to church though. saw clare there. she wore a dress. not to mention. i was wearing a dress too! had no say in it though. but i wasnt the only one wearing a dress. so it didnt matter.

well. makan was great as i said. everyone was there! damn nice man. there was auction thing. some one bid a few thousands for a rosary!!! crazy sia! then there was like two ppl dancing tango. hahas. then there was the 9 am ppl. dunno what they call themself as, some hindi name. hahaa. super nice man. exp. the music. hahaa. yst nite was super entertaining.!!!

at the end. got the disco part. even better. we danced to damn nice songs. and this guy. george i think. hahaa. was like the "leader" hahaa. damn nice. i thought he went too high! hahaa.went back. damn late. ners dad drove me and my bro back. was like 1 plus. damn tired.

ive got a soar throat this morning. wth. woke up like at 1.30pm! hahaa. damn sick la. orh wells. i enjoyed yst nite thats for sure! the new blogskin. hahas. kinda got sick of my previous one already. so fast? ahhaa. orhwells. exam round the corner. wth. i hate it. time to start studying! argh! orh wells. study hard ppl! now is the time to give it man! good luck!

how do I let go of a love
that meant so much to me.
how do I go on
when your part of me.
i'm dying inside
each time i see you.
don't lose sight of me
cause yer all i see.
your still all i see.
this road to recovery has taken all i have.
taken all i have.

i m d y i n g i n s i d e

griselda.9.29pm

2005-09-22T23:04:00.000+08:00

THE MAKAN CLICK!!!

hahas. the new click in my cls. wahahs. and im known as SALTY PRAWN! hahas. shantals one is nicer la. SPICY BANANA! well. yupp. dnt has been hwat ive been doing after skl lately. so rush man. and ive a folio to do finish by tmr!!! orwells. no band so far. kinda nice though. damn relax. exam round the corner. to tired to study. got so much to do adn so little time. although i still made time for god!! hahaa. well. this sat is FEAST DAY AT DOWNTOWN EAST! hahas.... and i dont like what im gonna wear. ive no say in it. orhwells. ive no choice. cant wait though. heard the foods gonna be damn nice. hahas.

i gtg do my dnt now. orh ya. that smk. drill hole untill all break. and now ive got to redo la! damn him. waste time. and dnt after skl is fun. or shoes are being sprayed. damn nice. and the tchers doesnt know. hahas. mines orange and red. !!

im glad you regeted what you did.

griselda. satisfied with all shes acomplished!. 23.12pm

2005-09-19T18:24:00.000+08:00

TODAY TIRING DAY. WENT TO SKL. HAD FUN AFTER SKL. DOING DNT. HAHAA. WE SPRAYED OUR SHOES!!! HAHAA. WELL. IM OFF TO CHURCH NOW. IM LATE!!! UPDATE LATER HOPEFULLY! HAHAAA!!!!

GRISELDA.18.27PM

2005-09-17T13:43:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired. this week so tring. sleept so late. haii. well. im going to go church for the whole of 9 day novena!!!! hahas. i guess im holy!!! hahaa. i guess. not much happened. although i stayed back almost everyday doing up my dnt car. haii! and no ones helping me finish! hahaa. well. im off to church now! update later!!!

griselda.1.56pm

2005-09-13T22:47:00.000+08:00

haha! very tiring lately. still in the hols mood i guess. arh! ive got this dnt cousework to do. and my partner is not helping me! hahaa. no offence ok. but got no choice wad. i know you dont know how to do. at least try la. god. ! im dying here man. hahaa. thanks priya. shes always there when i needed some one to be. so as my other frens too la. hahaa. shes one of the VIPs. hahaa. well. ive gt nothing much to blog about. went to do notice board for band?! we played musical chairs! i nearly won man. hahaa.well done wendy. hahaa. today went to do dnt with jer mich and siti. hahaa. then went off to compass with jer and siti. went to eat. met kim and sohyi. went home. and started to do the dnt la! wth. i cant draw man. must do five designs. and im thinking still. and that seng want to see it tomorrow. stupid shit. i havent finished yet. DIE!

hahaa. the weather lately damn nice man. got like lightning and rains like crazy. and rach took a photo of the lightning! damn cool. wahas. orh ya! curry puff is gonna be absent for the whole wk. that means 3 periods of lessons free!!! hahaa!!! and it starts tomorrow!! damn shiok! and it reminds me. bio lessons lately. damn interesting. hahaa. and today. a toal of like 6 tchers complained about my hair! hahaa.

griselda.23.00pm

2005-09-11T14:24:00.000+08:00

the past few days was nice. cause my parents and my younger bro went overseas. so me and my bro had the whole hse. it was nice.

tuesday!
went out with jermine. we played table tennis. and there were only two tables around her estate. and all was occupied. so we played with some of them. they were from china. and they were good!! my god. i was so horrible. they practically beat me and jermine. although i was worst. 2-11. so sad rite!. ahahaa

wednesday!
went out with jermine again. we played table tennis first. again. hahaa. then we went to my house. hahaa. we played ball. and all. was fun. went around my hse. went into the community centre near my hse. that community centre. is so horrible man. theres nothing nice there. not even a court. ! wth.

thursday!
went out with jermine AGAIN!.hahaa. we went to punggol cc to play badminton. then after that we went to eat then we went to play badminton again near her hse. after we got bored. we played table tennis again. hahaa. withthe CHINA ppl!. my god. they are still good. although i kinda improved. hahaa. 8-11. not bad erh. ahahaa.

friday!
went for band. hahaa. then came back home. and there was this movie on channel u at 11.30 pm. hahaa. i couldnt understand the movie you know. but it was scarie. a bit la. it finished like 2pm. went to bed but couldnt sleep. but soon i was la. hahaa.

saturday!
went for cat cls. poor ner got food poisoning!. hahaa. so sad. well. then went for ava. wasa super tired. dunno why. slept like almost the whole mass. then stayed bakc with the 9 am so called band. they played nice though. ahhaaa. was tiring. finished like 9.40 or so. went back., then watched THE MAID!. hahaa. my dad bought in msia. it wasnt that nice. not worth your money i should say. hahaa.

today!
kind of a relax day. hahaaa. got up late. watched tv. and was on my com. hahaa. well. my report book still havent signed yet. i dropped from my previous test. dropped alot. so sad. ar wells. theres still time to improve.

So here we stand
In our secret place
Where the sound of the crowd
Is so far away
You take my hand
And it feels like home
We both understand
It's where we belong

So how do I say
Do I say goodbye
We both have our dreams
We both wanna fly
So let's take tonight
To carry us through
The lonely times

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all of our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

So let's take tonight
And never let go
While dancing we'll kiss
Like there's no tomorrow
As the stars sparkle down
Like a diamond ring
I'll treasure this moment
Till we meet again

But no matter how far (no matter how far)
Or where you may be (where you may be)
I just close my eyes (just close my eyes)
And you're in my dreams
And there you will be
Until we meet

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all off our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all off our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

Oh yeah
You're the queen of my heart (queen of my heart)
No matter how many years it takes (queen of my heart)
I'll do it all to you
Oh yeah (queen of my heart)
Oh yes you are
The queen of my heart

youre the queen of my heart.

griselda. 9.47pm

2005-09-04T10:47:00.000+08:00

vertical horizon-loves light

well i know that no one is to blame

but do you feel my strength when you call my name

cause i feel yours inside

how could this be more right

and i have traveled through my mind

i've given all my dreams up to time

tell me what else can i do

we'll i'm nothing without you

but you, you just don't know what to do

i guess i'll have to lose my love for you

these feelings cannot stay

cause i'm withering away

i'm withering away

withering away

and teardrops are all that i can give

but do you really know what true love is

don't let it slip away

this doesnt happen everyday

and youd have no problem without me

so take this song as my apology

but you have closed my eyes

and love's light shall never rise

shall never rise on me

shall never rise

it shall never rise

and 'im scared i'll never hold you again

but i know that no one is to blame

erm. im just sharing this song lyrics here. i think it preety much reflects my situation?! hahas. i dunno. just found this lyric kinda nice. though ill share it. mum is coming back tonite. i s that suppose to be a good thing or a bad thing? hahaa. orh wells. i might be going to church later. i kind of missed meeting this morning cause i overslept. wth. i had no choice either.

i wanted you to be everything to me
Now I've got to learn to carry on
I know I cannot hide this emptiness inside
But nothing is the same since you've gone

theres still time.

griselda.11.30am.

2005-09-03T22:56:00.000+08:00

just came back from the mrm day of bonding thing. hahaa. we all like 12 ppl. went to eat prata!. hahaa. was so fun. EVERYONE WAS LIKE STARING AT US. then we had some night walk thing.hahaa. i saw a haunted house. it looked haunted though. hahaa. it was the darkest place i saw the whole night. hahaa. then the house beside it.well. cecilia told me that they had 5 cars. and there were only 2 ppl living there. hahaa. so weird. finished like 9.30 or so. then went home. arhwells. went home and jammed to my com. didnt move eversince. hahaa. it was FUN!

i went high before ava. hahaa. i didnt know why. hahaa. jared was wondering why and all. hahaa. nothing happened ok. hahaa. i saw but wwwww didnt do anything. hahaa. orhwells. the guy in choir sang so farnie. wee 4 was laghing. hahaa. orh ya! we had a new class teacher for today. shes like so much better than aunt francis and the 2 michaels. hahaa. shes lively. and dun talk much too. i want her as our teacher. wahas. aniwaes. mums away to kl. so im home alone with my dad and 2 bros. well maybe not alone la. hahaa. next week will be worse. it will only be me and my bro. hahaa.

i wanted to be there for you like no ever was

griselda.11.22pm

2005-09-02T22:03:00.000+08:00

today was ok. although you didnt come. ar wells. went to do dnt with mich and elaine. went compass with mich. met jer there. went home. tired out.
this is just something i came across. i think it really means alot.

would you look at her
she looks at me
she's got me thinking about her constantly
but she don't know how i feel
and as she carries on without a doubt
i wonder if she's figured out
i'm crazy for this girl

right now
face to face
all my fears
pushed aside
and right now
i'm ready to spend the rest of my life
with you

im crazy for you.

griselda.10.09pm

2005-09-01T22:36:00.000+08:00

today was super nice((: wahas. couldnt go out with sim they all go study and rach they all go town. but. today was like super nice. hahaa. we got popular voucher!!$$150!!! which is because of my studies last year and all. hahaa. we bought like so many things. haaha. and the reciept was like super super long. hahaa. i still have it! ahhaa. the cashire was like staring at us. so as the poeple lining up behind us. hahaa. so farnie. yupp. talked to my aunt in malaysia online before going to popular. saw sharidah at bk when eating luch with my bro. wahas. thats sad.

lifehouse-hanging by a moment

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
i'm closer to where i started
I'm chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me

now.. i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
and i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

there's nothing else to lose
there's nothing else to find
there's nothing in the world
that can change my mind
there is nothing else
there is nothing else
there is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where i started
I'm chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
and i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

just hanging by a moment...(here with you)
hanging by a moment... (here with you)
hanging by a moment... (here with you)
hanging by a moment here with you..

griselda.10.50pm

2005-08-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

today was unforgettable man. the teachers put up some great idol show man. hahaa. the advertisements were super farnie too. hahaa. the teachers sang preety well too. hahaa. we did the aces day thing too. hahaa. saw loads of ppl. all senoirs. last time from our skool. went for band celebration. hahaa. mich gave this speech. hahaa. yupp. and then we went around delivering presents to the teachers. hahaa. i didnt go back old skool. there wasnt time. thats sad.

i saw you for the first half. and the next. youre nowhere around me.
i had fun. it would be nice if you were with me.

vertical horizon-everything you want

somewhere there's speaking
it's already coming in
oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
you never could get it
unless you were fed it
now you're here and you don't know why

but under skinned knees and the skid marks
past the places where you used to learn
you howl and listen
listen and wait for the
echoes of angels who won't return

chorus

he's everything you want
he's everything you need
he's everything inside of you
that you wish you could be
he says all the right things
at exactly the right time
but he means nothing to you
and you don't know why

you're waiting for someone
to put you together
you're waiting for someone to push you away
there's always another wound to discover
there's always something more you wish he'd say

chorus

but you'll just sit tight
and watch it unwind
it's only what you're asking for
and you'll be just fine
with all of your time
it's only what you're waiting for

out of the island
into the highway
past the places where you might have turned
you never did notice
but you still hide away
the anger of angels who won't return

chorus

i am everything you want
i am everything you need
i am everything inside of you
that you wish you could be
i say all the right things
at exactly the right time
but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
and I don't know why
why
I don't know

griselda patrick.8.52pm

2005-08-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

today was ok. wahaas. went for meeting. lasted for awhile.why is she giving us a cold shoulder?! i feel like asking her one day. thats the day the voting thing ends! i cant wait. ive got so much to blast at her. haha. then. i denise and mich went to do art in the afternoon. phyllis dropped by too!. haha. it was tirying but fun!. hahaa. he joined 9 am choir! haha. i cant believe man. why did he do that?!

i love you more

griselda.10.12pm

2005-08-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

well. this is the new template. although the picture aint nice. i like the colour. haha. well. aniwaes. today was ok. went to museum. kinda boring. then went to do ava. and we screwed up some part of the mass. until we kena scolding. hahaa. well. it was not our fault eithier. the projector suddenly went to sleep. hahaa. well. came home. and started finding bout jack and jill. our art project. ahahaa. found this jack and jill picture where the two ppl are rabiits. hahaa. so stupid. hahaa.!

im so tired. i still have to draw mr jack and ms jill!!!

imissyoulikecrazy

griselda. 11.37pm

2005-08-24T20:49:00.000+08:00

hahaa. slacked in skool today. after taking my mt exam. hahaa. with the help of siti though. heehee. well. talked with shaunna for a while then went off to play volleyball. found out that she was last time from volleyball. hahas. she was so lonely. and. she waiting for her fren. haiyo. i felt bad leaving her to bore herself out alone. haha. then went to compass. suppose to do dnt today. but the room was locked. damn. well. went compass after that. saw rach. then i saw natasha!. and this bung. omg!. hahaa. bridget! hahaa. haiyo. well. met rach and natasha in the bus. went home. and slacked on the com. hahaa.

tomorrow. hahaa. we gonna do some aces day thing during pe. ill see you though!. hahaa. ill be taking 88 with rach and qam tomorrow. hahaa. its gonna be a fine day!

I CANT WAIT FOR PE TOMORROW!!!

i was relief that you didnt know anything!. hahaa.

griselda.9.00pm

2005-08-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

today had meeting! finally! hahaa. then went to compass after that. met some of my band ppl. so sad i couldnt go for the st margrets concert at sentosa!!!. i really wanted to go!!! hahaa. oh wells. went to eat with ner. veron. verons bro. kriste. bridget and nicole. hahaa. well. got home like 4 plus. went online for a while. then went off to church to do ava. hahaa. mel and val trained gabriel. haha. it was fun. hes a fast learner too((: hahaa. went home. and the com was mine. ahaha.

i miss you!

griselda

2005-08-20T21:31:00.000+08:00

i cant rmb wad happen the past week. but can rmb i had to rush to church to do mass. haha. celebrated felicias birthday on monday and ms chias birthday on wednesday! and i had the rock climbing thing on friday. it was fun!. yupp. today was ok. went to cat cls. had this breifing on some museum trip next wk. orh ya!. celebrated verons birthday. hahaa. everyone was like playing with the cake. hahaa. the cake was nice. haha. went for ava. jobina and amanda attended mass. hahaa. we got like scolding from this warden man. shes so irritating. hahaa. well.

tomorrow theres meeting. hahaa.

justaknowledgemewouldyou?

2005-08-13T12:54:00.000+08:00

THURSDAY
had to come back after long break. hahaa. went for the carnival. it was not bad though. we six-caroline. mich. rach. denise. natasha and me- explored the place. it was super big. and crowded!. hahaa. it was hot. but it drizzled slightly. kinda nice thought. haa. went to compass with rach. mich. cecilia. qamariah and natasha. saw this two guys in the bus. one of them sneeze like so loud. hahaa. i thought was a girl that sneeze like guy. cause he had long hair. hahaa. met sim. nadiah. nic. jasveer. elaine. renee and andrew i think in the bus. hahaa. went home and slacked.

FRIDAY
school was not bad. got back lit paper. hahaa. i passed!. haha.

went to plaza with ching. mich. rach. shantal. kim. sharene and cherie. then went for lunch at some restaurant. hahaa. it was porridge day. haha. reminds me of gold-di- locks. haha. we all ate the cheapest thing. haaa. there were 8 bowl of porridge and 8 glass of water. lolx. everyone all staring at us. hahaa. we were the biggest grp there though. haha. ching and cherie left us soon after. and we walked around. hahaa. then went up to by food.

after that went to watch charlie and the choco factory. there was one ladi. sitting beside mich. haha. when got farni part. she laugh until so loud. and farni. hahaa. i and shantal was like laughing at her more then the farni part on the screen. hahaa. lolx. it ended like 6.45pm. kim and shantal went to take train home. shantal has weird ideas man. she wanted to cut hair!. hahaaa. at 7 plus?? hahaa. lolx.

well. me. mich. sharene and rach took cab home. went to sharene's hse first. omg!. her house so nice!. hahaa. got down at rach hse. and walked home. went home. watched smallville as usual. hahaa. read the play hamlet. inside the romeo and juliet book. then slept. hahaa.

TODAY
ill be off to church soon. hahaa. leaving soon. hahaa.

imissyousomuch!iwonderifyoudotoo.isawyousomuchduringskool!imsohappy

I WANNA WATCH THE MAID!

griselda.1.30pm

national day celebrations

2005-08-08T17:49:00.000+08:00

came to skool. hahaa. went to play for band. it was quite horrible though. hahaa. nadiah wasnt there): she came late! ahaha. wasted. hahya/damn paiseh at the end. haii. had to carry the perc. intru. hahaa. then had to go back in to get the cymbals. and it was when everyone was sitting. paiseh. hahaa. well. saw her fren alot. haii. argh!. we met alot during the funfair set up by the tchers. her fren saw me too. my fren gave me a rose. then i gave it to her fren. i dunno if she gaved it to her fren. hahaa. i hope so ((:

the fun fair was nice((: the tcher and the IJ youth ppl did a great job!(: well done! the food was nice. although i must say. last year was nicer. haha. but the dipping thing was nice. hahaa. ((:

after that went out with sha. saw her and her frens in the bus. hahaa. they got down at heartland. hahaa. i saw her friend. again. came home at 1.45pm. and stared at the computer since. im gonna get mhyopia! argh! i didnt take the in-between breaks!. crap. i wonder how i passed time.hms.

iloveyou

griselda.6.37pm. having the time of her life.

fantastic

2005-08-07T10:17:00.000+08:00

todae. was nice. went. as promised to play bball wif kim and brenda. lalaa. so fun. yay!. before that. went for meeting. then went to compass with cathy, nerissa and veronica. hahaa. then cathy pierced her ears. hahaa. so scary. hahaa. well. after playing bball with kim and brenda. i had to rush to church. to do ava. hahaa. but i wasnt alone. cathy and mel came after that. hahaa. we screwed the whole mass up. hahaa. it was horrible. and we screwed the whole thing up when david was there some more. hahaa. fantastic man. well. came home. so tired. whole day out. im tired out!. tomorrow. is national day celebrations. so we have to wear red and white. im not wearing though. hahaa. im tired.

i really miss you. i hope you do.

i long for you. . .

griselda.9.18pm

2005-08-06T12:51:00.000+08:00

today was not good. jared and bel didnt come for av. i did alone. and ner left too. i totally screwed the whole mass. well part of it up. god!. that was the wort thing that happened todae. wish it never happens again. although. i must say. the choir was super loud!. hahaa. and the flute player todae was awesome. played damn nice. for some latin song they sang. lovely!. aniwae. todae nothing much happened though. for being a "trouble maker" last week. my tcher bough for us some badges. hahaa. it was like $1.50. hahaaa. she didnt take the price tag off. hahaa. hms. well. tomorrow. off to play bball with kim and brenda after my church meeting. hahaa.

i miss the days where life was fun,
where i could juz relax and walk with you down the beach.
i miss the days where life was fun,
where i'd lay in the sand with you and gaze into your eyes.
i miss the days where life was fun,
where your smile said a thousand words
i miss the days where life was fun,
where we'd just have each other to ourselves.
i miss the days where life was fun,
where anything could happen.
i miss the days where life was fun,
but right now, all i've got is the rain
washing away what was, and what will never be.

its been awhile now.i knew you frm the start.iLIKEyou.im serious.let me be the one?

griselda.11.36pm

to ////// -*

2005-07-31T18:46:00.000+08:00

when you were my fren i was happy.

when we went out i was happier.

when we stopped talking i was sad.

when i missed you i cried.

when i met your fren i hoped.

when you ignored me i bleed.

when you made me frustrated i dripped.

when you made me confused i messaged.

when i found out the truth i break.

but

when i can't take it anymore

i'll jump.

at least youre still talking to me

griselda.7.12pm

the days-

2005-07-29T21:44:00.000+08:00

the past few days was like damn fast. and i didnt go to skool for like two days. damn nice man.

well. my bro found this jack jack toy. the toy was like a little torn behind la. and then he brought it home. so we played with it for a while. press the hand and then the toy will be like talking. then suddenly laugh one. hahaa. so then. in the night. was sitting at the hall. then the toy was like. suddenly laugh. haha. no one press you know. then. like. after a while. happen again. it happened for like three times man. no one press but suddenly talk. hahaa. so. in the night. my mum said that. she heard that toy. suddenly laugh in the night. hahaa. so it got thrown down the rubbish shoute. hahaa. so poor thing. hahaa.

so in the end. skool was ok. except for ghjk man. well ghjk was like everywhere. and her fren asdf. haha. was everywhere with her. haha. today was the worst. asdf told me that ghjk not angry with me. but just dun wanna mix with me la. haii. then i like ask why but asdf doesnt know. wah then i damn like sad and angry lor. then i was holding my history book. felt like throwing it man. haii. then went downstairs. going to canteen. then saw ghjk. wah. i was like damn angry. she saw me though. i guess she could tell i was angry. man. i felt like crying. haii. i nearly scolded asdf man. lucky didnt. hahaa. well. got to call her only once. but when call back. no one pick up. hahaa.

weird things always happen. next week is common test week. hahaa. i haven studied yet. hahaa. will start. maybe tomorrow i guess. hahaa.

i guess i kinda like ghjk afterall.

griselda.10.40pm

2005-07-24T20:23:00.000+08:00

im really tired todae. im sick actuali. went to church though. todaes my bros birthday. this weeks the birthday week. got so many ppl birthday man. theres fiona. geraldine. matilda and my bro. wow!

my phone bill is dying. hav no money to top up. and i saw like so many bung frm other skool. hahaa.went to scc wit anabelle caro and meishan. hahaa. then saw this gal frm nan chiao. hahaa

aniwae.

i just would like to tell [ you ] not to think differently though. i really dunt know if its a yes or a no to you're question. haii. just dun avoid me k. i really think that you're avoiding me for some reason. which i beliEve its this one. just please dun take me wrong ok. life isnt the same without you.

and

the week coming. will be a hard week. exams like a few days more. and i havent started studying. i dun fell like it though. but i must pass to prove to my dad. haii. lifes terrible.

so.

to pass time. ive found a new template. hahaa. her eyes are nice man. hahaa. i love it. hahaa.

griselda. sick but staying strong. 9.00pm

passing out parade

2005-07-10T14:00:00.000+08:00

yst was passing out parade. so many ppl cry sia. hahaa. i was there laughing. hahaa. amanda. suddenly became sick. i tink she purposely sick one. hahaa. well. yst went for the fathers day tornument thing. hahaa, was damn hot. the food was horrible. thats wad fel told me. i didnt try it la. hahaa. went there wif daniel mel and val. then went for cat cls. the tcher sae she haven seen me long tym and all. and was greeting me. damn paiseh sia. then went to compass. then came back to do ava. jared was kinda in a bad mood. dunno why. he said he had something on his mind. poor thing. hahaa. there will be a wedding mass. on 30 july. haha. came home. came online for a while. then went to bed. woke up this morning. got scolding. haii. then watch tv. and helped my dad and all. haii. now. its like going to rain. wasted sia. i'll hav to go then. update when free.

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.

You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true,
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.

You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you
la la la la, la la la la, la la la la laaaaaa

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.

But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

i shall try my best to do what youre trying to do.

gris.patrick.2.19pm

the days

2005-07-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

the days pasts really fast. didnt find time to go and update. skool has started. and we have loads of stuff to do. pop this friday. all the sec4s and 5s are leaving. thats sad. our performances hav finished. got maths trail this weds.. well update next time k.

youve made me happy

griselda.12.28pm

2005-06-16T13:04:00.000+08:00

are you left brained or right brained??

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports

i found this at some persons blog. hahaa. hm. i wonder wad brain am i. ahahaa. adn i actuali found out. hahaa. im 50% right 50% left. if you want go here and try!http://www.blogthings.com/rightorleftbrainedquiz/

ive been waiting f0r y0u thru0ut mahh lyfe

wadd bout y0u??

are y0u waiting f0r me t0o?

2005-06-11T15:59:00.000+08:00

im like damn tired lately. just after camp. haii. i feel like sleeping but dun wanna. hahaa. well. ive gotten new stuff frm malaysia. hahaa. including my bro. went out to j8 yst. my mum had to get her glasses done. went home. watched smallville. hahaa. came online. then went to bed. haii.

today. i was kinda tired. but i soon went hyper. for some reason. i also dunno. went to help emmelyn to do up her blog. hahaa. ten i did mine. hahaa. its a new design i found. hahaa. its like damn kool la. haha. so im just giving it a try. hahaa. fell free to give me ya thought bout the blog ya. hahaa. well. later i and ner. will be once again doing av. alone. jared and issable will be at camps and all. haii. we scared we kena scolding like before. hahaa. but we hav no choice. hahaa.

there are like alot of performances cpming soon. and ill be involved in both skool and church this week. hahaa. cant wait. hahaa. tomorrow. my parents are going to. once again. start painting the house. hahaa. so. i may not come online for a while. hahaa.

well. update later k. im off to sleep for a while. then i shall met ner at 5.30 i tink. hahaa. see ya.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind. 4.07pm

CAMP!!!

2005-06-09T16:28:00.000+08:00

well. av that day was ok. we managed to do it. although got a little scolding from the priest. hahaa. well the past few days was camp. damn nice sia. i was in a grp called. clownfish. our team mates-nic,lilian,denise,peiying,monique,priya,shina,jiaxin and me. our camp intructor was peggie png. hahaa. our grp was the best grp. hahaa. so we got stuff to eat and all. hahaa.

well. the first day was spent in skool. we went to labador park for a race. something like amazing race. our grp was like super early. and we were the first grp to be in. we watched a movie. -13 going on 30-hahaa. we slept in skool that nite. i slept for like 5 hours i tink. hahaa. the food that day was ok. but. they didnt serve drinks at all. so we drank plain water.

second day was nicer. we were going to the underwater world. !!. we had loads of games. food was superb. went to so many places like underwater world and the muzical fountain had quizes. haha. and we slept at the underwater world!. it was damn shiok la. while sleeping kan see creatures swiming past and all. hahaa. but it was damn bloody cold la. elaine and elise was telling stories. ten we started taking photos. ten denise took one photo. like got ghost or something. cause she took one gals face. but there wasnt a face. it was just a thick white line la. so they so scared. they all go and sleep. haha. i was slepping then.

woke up todae at 6.30 like that. todae was the third and final day. was shivering and all. food was nice. once again. went to dolphin lagoon. was upclose wif the dolphins. hahaa. watched documentary. hahahaaa. but i was like falling asleep la. ten we had cheer competition. hahaa. we won. hahaa. ten headed for skool. where we ate our lunch. hahaa. ten the tchers had some final stuff to sae and all. we got the best grp award. so we stayed back awhile to take photos and give out prizes. hahaa. went home wif lin and felpaul. and now im damn tired. my parents aint home. my bros at camp. so im all alone. hahaa. well. ill be going downstairs my house for a while soon. im gonna buy sweets and all. to eat. hahaa. till then. ill be changing my blog skin again. hahaa.

youre alwaes on my mind

grispatrick.gone in the wind.4.48pm.

thanks nerissa

2005-06-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

yst wasnt anithing nice. was all the same. hahaa. todae. was the nicest actuali. hahaa. me and ner went to town. hahaa. ten we were like taking pix of ppl. saw alot of ppl. i saw mardiah and nicole sam wif these two guys. hahaa. yupp. then we went to far east. then this three guys came and sat at like the other chair. cause we were busy taking pix and stuff. ten one guy asked for ners hp number to make frens!! hahaa. and this ner. dunno how to gif fake number you noe. haiyo. hahaa. ten she told thm her age and stuff. cause they asked. then like when we were going back. the guy was like calling nerissa like so loud. hahaa. sad. so we ran away frm there. well. bel called us to tell us that she couldnt come for av. but lucky jared was coming. hahaa. so. we took train back to yio chu kang. from there. we took cab home. cab number 6273. hahaa. the uncle so kind. hahaa.

went back to church. in was like running around. cause there was loads of things to do. thank god that girl that types the songs normally did it correctly this time. only got some rong stuff she type.hahaa. then jared came. then during mass. we were drawing on each other. the priest was screaming into the microfone. haiyo. then started singing. haiyo. ten. well. i and ner hav to do av tomorrow.. but we both scared sia. the choir for that mass damn demanding la. haii. well. i pray that everythings goes the way it should be. well. ive changed my blog layout. or maybe. going to. hahaa.

will you??

gris patrick. gone in the wind.9.53pm

bee-yoo-tee-fool

2005-06-02T20:28:00.000+08:00

my bro left for malacca todae. he said i could hav his fone for the time being. hahaa. so im enjoying. hahaa. went for band. met a few ppl along the way. met marsel. hahaa. at my hse bus stop. hahaa. met shok chen. hahaa. and this fren of hers. dunno hu also. hahaa. yupp. she was wearing specs!!!. didnt noe. hahaa. went for band. was early. as usual. played songs. alot. went home. saw my new bed. its ugly. hai. went online. haii. todaes been a fast day. but it doesnt end here. theres still the shifting of rooms to be done now. haii. ive to throw away my present bed. and use the new one. haii. tat bed was so nice. haii. now ive got some stupid thing. haii. im gonna crave somethin on it. as my trademark. and then throw it away.

tomorrow theres meeting. at 3 i guess. alot of ppl not going. haii. all on holiday. sad. well. cant wait aniwae. OTHER people are coming. hahaa. and. ive been riting stuff lately. im gonna rite one now

i wish to be

the one in his life

but he wished someone else

to be that one

ill be here waiting for you

though i wouldnt think

you would care at all

please tell me something

an answer would be great

to all my questions

i felt was never heared

to me youre the one

that gives my life

that special touch it needs

just seeing you

or imagining you

is all it needs

to make my day

seeing you

thats all it takes

to make me smile

and make my day

i wish my wishes

would all come true

till then

ill be just right here

waiting for you

*done by gris

yupp. hahaa. well. ive also been browsing through other ppl blogs. and well. this so called poem. was the one. i liked. hahaa. hoped you dun mind k.

i'm useless,i don have the courage to ask you be with me.
i wanna hug you tight and never let go.
i'm not gonna let you leave me again,
not even a step.
i'm selfish,i want you by my side.
days without you are the dark side of my life.
you are the light. of my life.
i need you.
i want you.
i love you.
if i ever ask...will you come to me?
will you say yes?

*i love you

gris. patrick. gone in the wind. 9.09pm

hoilday!

2005-06-01T09:38:00.000+08:00

well. the past few days. kinda relax la. can wake up bloody late also. nobody scold you to get uo earlier and stuff. hahaa. well. first of all. would like to sae HAPPIE BURFDAY TO NERISSA. hahaa. she one of my closest fren. hahaa. aniwaes. yst. had to go band. hahaa. wif my hair cut. hahaaa. got the two percussion ppl sae. my hair look like draco malfoy frm harry potter. cause i gelled my hair all back. hahaa. so. after band. went to like 8 phone shops in total. with jer. to check out price. hahaa. the guy in the shop like so puzzeled la. cause i was riting down the price ma. ten like they wondering why i like tat. hahaa. cause i was comparing price. hahaa. my bro got new fone la nokia 6020. hahaa. the camera not nice sia. hahaa. so im aiming for nokia 6230i. hahaa. its quite ex la. but i shall start saving!. hahaa.

well. alot of ppl are flying off. mel is going off to america tomorrow. the sec 1 in church are going to malacca for camp. and my bros going to. as a facilitator. hahaa. i shall hav peace!!. ten. bels going off to perth next wk. my parents and my little bro are going off to kl this sun. hahaa. im not going cause ive got a camp. hahaa. so i will be staying rite here in singapore for this holidays.

our band will be taking part. or maybe. hav to take part in doing three more public performances. hahaa. so we only hav to do 3 performances to get grant. where we will get new intru. hahaa. so. one of them will be at laupasar.on the 25 i tink. and the other will be on the 19. at central mall. hahaa. camt wait. all we need is one more venue. and new instru will be coming.. hahahaa. lalaaa

well. update later kies. biee

somethings stopping me from forgetting you.

gris.patrick.gone in the slight breeze.10.25am

2005-05-29T11:24:00.000+08:00

hahahaa. ner was sick once again. so. i did av. once again wif jared and bel and me. hahaha. i was like so lonely at first. cause i came super early. like 5.20. i took my time. guess i shouldn't have. there was like alot of things to be done. wow!. i was like dying. the gal tat types the stuff. all type like tornado man. i had to re-edit the whole thing. haiyo. somemore. its my first time doing it man. hahaaa. ten came along jared. who finds out the protracter outside not working. ten i was alone again. i was busy editing the whole thing. orh. did i mention my hair?!?!!!. its the first time to church wif my new hair!!. hahaa. its dyed dark red now. hahaa. o well. ten. hahaa. bel realised i was like stading for at least the whole mass. hahaa.and. well. found out jared may not come next wk. and i dunno bout bel. and im scared ner will be sic again. so i maybe doing all alone next week!. im prepared!!. i tink...

well. i saw mrs anne tay. hahaa. she didnt see me . hahaa. ten. met up wif veronica. hahaa. went home wif her. hahaa. oh ya. jareds burfday was on friday!!. HAPPIE BURFDAY!!!. yea. and so. went home. discovered my hair was amazing. it could stand damn bloody nice la. i love my hair!. hahaaa. i miss ner. haiyo. she like so long sick readi. hahaa. i pray for her!! o yarh. yst was ashvinds burfday. hahaa. HAPPIE BURFDAY TO YOU TOO.!!

well. nothings nice this morning. the same stuff i guess. hahaa. i shall update more later. o yea. the only thing i knew is that. my bros gonna buy a new fone!. damn shit la. im still stuck wif this fone. haiyo. tats my punishment for not saving like sioa at first. i shall start saving. now!!

update more later. biee

its you tat makes my day complete

gris patrick.gone in the strong wind. 11.37am

exciting!!

2005-05-27T14:35:00.000+08:00

hahaa. well.skool over. but not for me i guess. hav to go back. for band. hahaaa. well.yst. went for hair cut. wit gillian,cheryl,imai,jiajia,shokwen. hahaa.we all cut hair yst. hahaa. poor untie. hahaa. well. met ner after tat. hahaa. went to str8ten my fringe. hahaa. we and ner chat quite alot. bout my skool year book. hahaa. she saw loads of ppl. hahaa.

today. went for ptm. the tcher complain loads. saw i like to talk alot and stuff. hahaa. ten met amanda and nicole at compass. met marieclaire on the way. hahaa. we four went there. saw alot of tchers. mostly all i guess. hahaa. saw denise again. hahaa. she supports red!. hahaa. participated in family race. i ran wit this p1 gal. who claims to have seen me in skool. but i never once went into that skool. hahaa. i hav a look alike!. hahaa. wonder hu she is. well. we came in 1st in the family race. hahaa. i got some manicure thingi. hahaa. yucky. the p1 gal. got stationary. hahaa. which was like nicer than mine la. hahaa. went home. talked on the fone wit cecilia. hahaa.

well liverpool won!!! lalalaa

it will be complete wit you inside

gris.patrick.gone in the dying wind.2.45pm

2005-05-25T23:16:00.000+08:00

well theses few days were kinda tiring. but we all kinda slacked in class. nothing to do i guess. loads of stuff happen. hahaa. had band like alot lately. hahaa. got holiday on monday. tat was nice. but i went out wit quamariah and cecilia to town. came home. and sleep. on tuesday was bout the same. had band prac for cheer competition. hahaa. tats was farni. came home. and sleep. today was the different. hahaa. loads of stuff happen. mat got angrie-fone spoil. and poor shok chen. haiyo. and well. had some talk todae. bout some stuff. how nice erh??. to start of the day! hahaa. went for band. had the cheer competition try out on stage. hahaa. im like standing rite infront . hahaa. paiseh sia. hahaa. we talked. played. talked some more. did the cheer again. wit more improvement. hahaaa. thanks to ms alya!came home. and was str8 on the com!. haii.

tomorrow. im not coming in track pants and camp tee. who wants to aniwae?!?!!!. haiyo. im going for a hair cut tomorrow. hahaa. its gonna be shorter than it alreadi is. hahaa. tomorrow also got the competition. hahaa. there goes my face!. on friday. got PTM at 8.15. ten ill be meeting amanda to go bishan stadium. on sat. will go to st gabs pri. hopefully. hahaa. for some carnival thing. haii. thats my plan for the week!. hahahaa.

it will be complete if i see you at least once.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind.

2005-05-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

well. yst got no marching. so went home early. came home. slacked alot. then went to church. hahaa. there was like this guy. whom i later on found out his name was . joshua. he look like pri skool kid. hahaa. so. well.. i was walking up the hill. to my church. cause the gate close. then. this guy. he started like calling me. he said. "emu emu". then of cu=ourse i turn la. ten the guy look at me like closely. trying to figure out who the hell am i. ten he was like. o sorrie sorrie. hahaa. ten he ran. hahaa. farni.

went for meeting. hahaa. talked alot. saw the soul. i was damn happie. went hyper. hahaa. and all sorts. hahaaa. i jus love the church. hahaaa.meeting ended quite late. saw him walk off. hahaa. gave geri her belated preeziee. hahaa. HAPPIE BURFDAY !!.

this morning. met amanda at the bus stop. went to bishan park. my old skool ppl was there. got tchers too. took pix. saw denise!!. haha. and the dog. haha. so cute. but scarie. hahaa. to me. hahaa. ten met these few ppl. tessa frm plmgs and deborah frm sida. hahaa. had fun. came home. slacked. wen to church after tat. met val and nat at the bus stop. went mobil. attend cat cls. and there came the soul. hahaaa. i saw. before and after. hahaa. cat cls. hahaa. hms. he went home. i stayed in church. did av wif ner and bel.

i never wished it happened

2005-05-19T20:24:00.000+08:00

well. came home frm band late today. at like 6.30. haii. and ar on my way home ar. i saw this bung la. frm srjc. wah she damn like cute la. she like a little bit failure la. but never mind la. ten like. she kept staring at me. and i did too. i also dunno why. we had like eye contact for like 3-4 times at least. hahaa. it was damn farni la. hahaa. when she left. she didnt turn to look. how sad. hahaa. her hair was nice. hahaa. and she got down the stop just before mine.

wen it was my turn to get down. i go and step on this like old ladis skirt la. her skirt like damn long one la. so i accidentaly go and step. haha. she nearly fell. hahaa. but didnt. hahaa.

skool was fun today. for a change. hahaa. well. we going to change pe attire. hahaa. its like damn ugly la. hahaa. i violently object! hahaa. mr sim told stories. farni la. hahaa. i guess he likes the onik paper alot. one day must buy for him. for teachers day. hahaa. then band was fun as well. hahaa. i was saving money. so i had a whole bottle of sprite ice for lunch. hahaa.

came home. wasnt too good. my parents started scolding me. for loads of stuff. haii. and so much more. haii. thats all nonsense la. i just dunno why things are going this way. i wish it ends .

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
I’m just out to find
The better part of me

I’m more than a bird…
I’m more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It’s not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I’ll never see

It may sound absurd…
but don’t be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed…
but won’t you concede
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It’s not easy to be me

Up, up and away…
away from me
Well it’s all right…
You can all sleep sound tonight
I’m not crazy…
or anything…

I can’t stand to fly
I’m not that naive
Men weren’t meant to ride
With clouds between their knees

I’m only a man in a silly red sheet
Digging for kryptonite on this one way street
Only a man in a funny red sheet
Looking for special things inside of me
inside of me ......
inside of me ...(x2)

I’m only a man in a funny red sheet
I’m only a man looking for my dream
I’m only a man in a funny red sheet
It’s not easy ...
wu.. hoo.. hoo..
It’s not easy to be me...

imissyoualreadi.willyouatleasttalktome.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind.8.57pm

2005-05-18T18:27:00.000+08:00

haii. got back like loads of papers today. hahaa. my highest was maths. hahaa. i missed an a1 by four marks sia. wasted. haii. well. failed my malay as expected. man. but i didnt noe i fail until so bad la. for paper 2 i got 12/70 man. damn horrible sia. haii.

well. just now got band. finished at like 4.30 like that. hahaa. then like i and jer had to teach the sec one flautist. haha. meagan i tink her name. hahaa. farni like hell. ONE AND TWO AND BREATH AND BREATH AND. hahaaa.

tomorrow will be nat and mats 1st ani. hahaa. congrats. hahaa. and caros the daughter. hahaa. CONGRATES. hahaa. the farniest ppl i ever know. hahaa.

im off to church now. lalaa. im off.

ifeellikethereissomethingmissinginmylife. andthatisyou.

gris.patrick. alwaes missing you .6.46pm

my free day-

2005-05-17T21:03:00.000+08:00

hahaa. today is my free day i guess. hahaa. came home damn early at 3. hahaa. ten did goeg project. hahaa. todae. in skool nothing nice i guess. hahaa. just the same stuff. i got no papers back. but i know my malay fail. hahaa. 40 plus plus. hahaa. i fail sia. hahaa. but i not the only gal fail ma. hahaa. must pass up goeg project tomorrow. hahaa. so tiring. must do and do. hahaa. but got ppl help me online. haha. thanks!.

tomorrow theres band again. haii. dun feel like going. but got no choice wad. hahaa. cant even absent frm skool. they will book you if theres no valid reason. book for truency. wad the hell kan. haiii. ten ive meeting tomorrow. haii. how to go also i also dunno. i have meeting at 8. and band finishes at 6.30 or so. how to come back in time. and go. without rushing?!?!!!. haii. i miss ner . haii. hope she not sick still. hahaa.

havent been on good terms wif my parents lately. ever since we fough on sat. just b4 i left for cat cls. haii. they are reali treating me like im no one sometimes. haiizz. sometimes i dun fell like coming home. im trying my best. to be like i was before the fight. but tat doesnt seem to happen. they alwaes start to scold and all. exp my mother. haii. i just don fell like coming home sometimes. but i dont hav a choice do i?? if i actuali run away from home. the skool will be called. police getsinvolve. haii. i just dunno wad to do rite now i guess. im just leaving it up to the man above.

ireallymissthesoul.howlongwouldihavetokeepthethingsinsideofme.burried.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind

back to skool~*

2005-05-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

well. today was kinda tiring i guess. we had band. haii. well. we had some health screenning thing. hahaa. it was disgustiing. believe me. ten we had some stupid talk by some bookworm guy. hahaa. then got band. haii. bands like gonna fill up my whole week man. there is band like 4 times this wk. my only day which is free is on tuesday. haii. how sad. well. we had some probs in cls. hahaa. one gal cry. the other one nearly. jus for a small misunderstanding. hahaa. farni like hell

I open my eyes
I try to see but
I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

Chorus:
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
Got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

gris.patrick.gone in the wind

burfdae partiee

2005-05-15T08:14:00.000+08:00

the past few days has been quite a rush. hahaa. had art to do and all. didnt find the time i guess. well on friday. was the last paper. art. so exams over. haha. damn happie. but nows the results. a few ppl slept over at mels hse tat nite. hahaa. i didnt. hahaa. haha. well i played basketball after cat cls. in a skirt. hahaa. shaun and daniel like damn pro lor. hahaa. yupp. ner didnt come. she was sick. so yst. i did ava alone. hahaa. was wif bel and jared only. well i came late. and well everything was pushed forward. hahaa. we got scolding. hahaa. sorrie jared!

after mass. went for my cousins burfdday partie. at buangkok there. haiya. me. my dad and bro. walk there la. ten ar. some stupid thing scratch me. now i got a cut on my leg. hahaa. my cousins partie was nice. nice cake. nice food. hahaa. my aunts and uncles played poker after tat. hahaaa. i didnt play ofcourse. i will lose money like siao. so i didnt play. after tat they played 21. tats where my dad joined in. hahaa. well. me and my bro played. we started off as $1. well. in the end. we still had $1. hahaa.but that dollar. was given by dad. so in a way. we earned. hahaa. left the place quite late. went home. its was raining like shit. got all wet. hahaaa. but my bag didnt . hahaa. happie burfdae russel john!!

meeting over. hahaa. was quite fast actuali. hahaa. finished like 10 mins or so. so well. i slacked in the library till like 12 plus plus. ten went home. haha. slacked again at home. ten finally and on the com. hahaa. well. tomorrow got band man. hahaa. but its till 4. so its kinda ok i guess, well shall stop here. till next time.

Coming out of my cage

And I've been doing just fine

Gotta gotta be down

Because I want it all

It started out with a kiss

How did it end up like this?

It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep

And she's calling a cab

While he's having a smoke

And she's taking a drag

Now they're going to bed

And my stomach is sick

And it's all in my head

But she's touching his chest now

He takes off her dress now

Let me go cause

I just can't look its killing me

And taking control

Jealousy turning saints into the sea

Swimming through sick lullabies

Choking on your alibis

But it's just the price I pay

Destiny is calling me

Open up my eager eyes cause

I'm Mr Brightside(repeat)

I never

mypillowiswet.fromallthetearsivecried.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind.8.29am

today

2005-05-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

another day at skool. history paper. finish man. its quite ok i guess. lalaaa. yst this matilda yeo. push me sia. wah liao. now my knee pain man. ten cannot kneel. hahaa. sad la. hahaa. ten we go town once again. haha. study for like till 2.30. ten came back. hahaa. ten went to bishan. bought enlarger for my ear. damn kool man. haha. its red. todae. history over. got art tomorrow. ten no more. haha. cant wait.

It's all about you (it's all about you)

It's all about you baby

It's all about you (it's all about you)

It's all about you

Verse 1:

Yesterday you asked me something I thought you knew

So I told you with a smile, it's all about you

Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too

Said you'd make my life worthwhile,

it's all about you

Chorus:

And I would answer all of your wishes

If you ask me to

But if you deny me one of your kisses

Don't know what I'd do

So hold me close

and say three words like you used to do

Dancing on the kitchen tiles,

it's all about you, yeah!

Chorus 2:

And I would answer all of your wishes

If you ask me to

But if you deny me one of your kisses

Don't know what I'd do

So hold me close

and say three words like you used to do

Dancing on the kitchen tiles

Yes you make my life worthwhile

So I told you with a smile

It's all about you

It's all about you (it's all about you)

It's all about you baby(repeat until end)

the song by mc fly. i love this song. yea.

wheresthesoul.whyaintyoutalkingtome.tellmewhy.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind.3.22pm

~~collidee

2005-05-10T22:23:00.000+08:00

well. the past few days. filled wif exams. haha. its quite ok la. now tats its gonna finishh like on friday. hahaa. well. yst. was ok. haha. ppl in my class came back like injured. hahaa. or some how sick la. haha. denise came back wif a black eye. cause her sis punch her eyes. hahaa. look like she out mascara and then smuged it. hahaa. ten shok chen came wif a sore throat. hahaa. for a change it was good la. got some peace and quite. hahaa.

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
Youre barely waking
And I’m tangled up in you
Yeah

Im open you’re closed
Where I follow, you’ll go
I worry I wont see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

Im quiet you know
You make a first impression
Ive found Im scared to know
Im always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don’t stop here
I lost my place
Im close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide

its been stuck in my head. haiz. i love itt. haaax. howieday-collide

todae as usual went out to study at captains. haha. AUNTY LEE. hahahaa. went back to compass. meet our dear GOOD frwen. miss edeline si. hahaa. yupp. she took the nice pwinkie thing michelle got fer her buurfdae. hahaa. after tat. hahaa. and went home. we studied like three hours straight man. at rm. hahaa. MILO FREEZZ. hahaa. yupp. we took lrt to compass. go pass so many timess. hahaa. i was having fun. hahax. r i g h t . . .

tomorrow is maths. haha. all prepared and ready i guess. i LOVE maths. yupp. the next day. ish history. another sub i like. hahaa. quite prepared la. hahaa. yupp. then its like the last paper is art. hahaa. im gonna colour using colourpencils i tell you. im not going to use paint. had bad experiences with it readi. me and paint have a long long history. lalaa. well. yea. doing my art now. just anihow draw one. hahaa.

imissthesoulalreadi.whereareyou??

gris.patrick.gone in the wind. 10.35pm

the soull

2005-05-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

well. yst the soul din come. haha. but things were fine. as usual. bel. ner and jared talked bout some stuff . hahaa. i dun even noe sia. i was happily listening. l a l a l a a. but now i noe hu liaos. hahaa. i went finding. ner helped me also. haha. yupp. like todae. was full force one geog and home econs. yea. hopefully pass. haha. had to help my mum wif making stuff for the rosary at my hse tonite. haiz. wat a total disgrace sia. i had to read the 4th decade la. wah liao. i read like shit lor. and my bros condeming me. haiz. before the rosary. i was fighting wif my younger bro. he started scratching me lor. so i tak boleh tahan. i also scratch back la. ten he started crying. and there came my mum to the rescue of him. haiz. ten i kena. haiz.
well the whole of next week. ish exams. yipee. wad i like bout exams ish tat. can hav like half day kinda thing. hahaa. nice. . .rite. . . and ya. so. well. just finish that rosary thing. l a l a a.
gonna go back in my dear room where i will not be in a few weeks time. haiz. my dads changing the layout. haiz. tomorrow ish geog. which i heared the paper damn hard. and home econs. which i hate man. but pass happie liao. l a l a l a a. yupp. may not go blogging till like next sat or so. gonna go full force on all my subjects. expecially. maths and history. l a l a l a a. hopefully next sat will be much betar. wen the soul comes. hahaa. on friday da 13 rite. exam ova. its art on tat day. hahaa. sure very the sway one. hahaa. haiz. well wanna go studie some more. hahaa.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind. 11.02

s i l e n c e k i l l s . . .

2005-05-07T09:48:00.000+08:00

its been like 4 days since we[mich.rach.natas.denise.me!] went out studying. haha. we went on lrt rides. hahax. ten like. we saw loads of things. did the ah-buish thing alot. laughed alot. hahaa. ask for ppl number. me and rach didnt la. had to help. ede and nat get this number frm this guy frm punggol sec. haha. in the end wen they wanted to go get. police came. hahaa. caught them exchanging sticks. how sad. hahaa. and then like. yst was the most farniest. and the most. amazing. haha. examed finished like 10. but natas couldnt come. had to do her clay thingi for art. so long overdue liao. haiz. ok. so. we went to captains to eat. i didnt. haha. saving. haha. ten we went to town after tat. we saw loads of things. we saw rachs look a like. haha. damn kool sia. got the same bag. hhad the same hairband. chinese. and even wearing the ij uniform also. haha. damn farni siaa. ten like. we saw this gay guy. hahaa. hes a guy ofcourse. but he was practically walking like a gal. in like the middle of the walk way. hahaa. carzy. hahaa. he was like fliping his hair. wearing a bandana. twirling his hair also. walking like a model. legs crossing each other. eeewwww. yucks man. hahaa. ten we went into the isetan thingi. hahaa. i took the flesh.imp bagde man. damn nice lor. blue colour. ten like mich saw a voucher also. and she took it la. but we found out the voucher is a sample. haha. farni. hahaa. we went to this place. dunno where actuali. we went to so many. hahaa. ten like. we took the paper thingi. and started spraying perfume. haha. wah. we got like jlos one. brits one. and some others man. hahaa. but i dunno how it smells like readi. hahaa. all mixed up. hahaa. but all i noe is tat. its not nice. haha. yepp. ten went into

.:: t r a l a l a l a l a a . . .

2005-05-02T20:04:00.000+08:00

haha. the amazing thing i found out about the word tralalaa. hahax. its means. family jewel. hahax. yepp . its true. hahaha. and the word wols. hahaa. means slow. haha. i was like blurr wen they were using the word wols. hahax. rite.. hahaa. ok. hahax. aniwae. went to bishan todae sia . got new laces man . hahaa. ten well. recieved this msg. from this soul. i the afternoon. at 5.17pm. hahax. well. it was like amazing lorr. i mean like. if this was true. i would be screaming. hahax. well. my dear fren suggested to ask this soul if it was true anots la. but. you noe. i dun dare. hahax. so well. it was like. amazing!. this soul would never send stuff one. send to me some more. about these kinda things man. and i was like so shocked. and was like. so happie. eventhough i didnt noe if it was true anots. i ate like two whole tubes of mentos. hahax. i was like so happie. hahax. ten like on sat. meet this soul also. haha. every sat i meet this soul. hahaa. i love sat!. haha. another reason why i love sat cause. i and ner. get to do ava!. haha. i tink its like so kool. expessially. wen you use the camera thingi. hahaa. well. exams starting this weds. hahax. and it starts wif malay paper one and two. haix. i hate malay! hahax. well. guess shld be studying rite. hahax. but. haiz. so tired sia. haiz. and like exams end on friday the 13th! hahaa. and its an art paper. sure some thing rong one. haha. i tink friday the 13 shld be a kool day yea. hahax. well. i wish that soul that sent me the msg would tell me if its true anots. hahax.

i miss this soul alreadie..

gris.patrick.gone in the wind.8.18pm

problemss

2005-04-30T21:21:00.000+08:00

hahax. todae i went to compass first. hahaa. ten came late. as usual. to cat cls. hahax. so farni siaa. we all had to sing some song sia. hahaa. ten rite. after cls. we went to play basket ball wif some sec2 gals. wah. they kan shoot sia. power man. ten went back to church. did ava alone. at the start. ten ner came. hahaa. ten went home. ten. hahaa.

ok get this str8 ok. if you wanna back stab ppl. ten so be it ok. dun come tell me. to not act bigg like i noe ok. i noe everything alreadi ok. how could you do this to them. you just left them. is tat the way a true fren should be. if the whole lot of you are in this. ten dun try to get out of this. cause either way. you will still be in it. cause you gave the statement. i never thought you would do this ok. you were my child hood fren. and so were the others. we were all together. how could you ddo this. i noe that telling the truth is not rong. its actuali the right thing to do. but how could you just tell the truth when they sae tat if you tell the truth about the whole thing. you will have nothing to do with this. let me tell you. tats not the way a true fren should behave ok. she doesnt hav money. you noe that. at least lend her. when she asks. your mother wont scold you for it ok. i dun even think she will care who let your money also. its just tat. i didnt noe you were like this man. why the sudden change??. you were never like tat last yr. why did you become like this. ? i can believe you would just like turn your back on them. your frens. who were alwaes there for you man. in the morning. after the whole frens thing happen. you didnt sit wif the others animore. and you went to. the few frens whom you now "betrayed". they were all to you that time. and once you found your other frens. you spent less time wif them. became worst then you were. and started spreading stuff bout me. which ar not true. i reali am angrie wif you for doing that. is just tat i give in. i didnt confront you. like i would. to others. cause you were my childhood fren. and i respected you for that. but i cant believe that now. all has changed. lmost nwo. all the thingsyou hav been saying are lies. well. i hope that. at least man. reflect back on wad ive just said. i noe that telling the truth anit rong. but telling the truth just to not be involved in it. well. that i find it reali rong. for if you all were in this together. ten wad ever that comes the way. should be faced together. theres no such thing as leaving half way. so please man. try to change man. for the better. cause i tink if this goes on man. i dunno wad will happen. i respect you for the fren that you were. not the fren that you hav become.

aniwae. enough la. if i continue. my whole post will be bout it. so haha. shall stop. but if youre reading this. you should noe tat you are the person im talking bbout. and try to reflect on wad ive just said ok. one day. just one day. if i actuali blow. which ish impossible to belive la. youre gonna get it man. for theres alot of things that you hav done to me . that hav just. hurt me alot. hahax. no la. actuali. its quite unbelievable. haha. so. yea. just dun be like tat ok. and stop telling lies. if you wanna tell lies then so be it. haha. as long as its not bout me kan liaos. haha. yupp. shall end
gris.patrick.gone in the wind. 10.00

the day

2005-04-30T10:52:00.000+08:00

hahax. todae damn farni sia. we had drawing competition. hahax. shok chen also draw. together wif cecilia and elaine. hahax. farni sia. i tink shantal drew the nicest. hahax. farni like hell mann. then this shok chen ar. dunno how to walk sia. so farni. hahax. aniwae. we did our home econ practical after skool. hahax. the 2a ppl rite. they cook before us. they never clean up sia. so irritating lors. hahax. ten we cook out dishes la. hahaa. mine was some salad la. with chicken. hahax. ten got other ppl made alot of stuff. got pizza sia. damn nice lor. hahax. ten got caroline . wah. she made some choco muffin man. nice sia. hahax. mine was yucky. hahaa. i didnt like it. so i threw it away. hahax. mine so disgusting siaa. hahax. then went to play volleyball again. hahax. with some sec 1 gals. hahax. they all sae i sound like some gal. and look like tat amanda claire gammel!. hahaa. yucky! hahax. went home at 6.30pm. hahax. and kena scolding. for coming home late. hahax. but i also got no choice wad. haha.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind.

[scarie sia]

2005-04-28T20:32:00.000+08:00

hahaaax. i todae so tired sia. we played volleyball siaa. hahaax. so farni siaa. hahaxx. my hand after tat all red. hahaa. ten todae. damn scarie lorr. in the morning rite. like all of them so pek chek lorr. i also dunno why. hahaa. i so happie. they so like sad. hahaa. farni siaa. hahaax. then in the end. of i am rite. they all happie again. hahax. ten todae got natasha man. wah. she was suspected of getting chicken pox la. wah damn scarie lorr. i the second last one to drink her sprite ice some more. then like when the teacher go like check rite then she come back to cls. then we ask her wad happen. she sae that she is in a suspected case of chicken pox lorr. wah damn scarie siaa. haiyo. then i my face became so like icthy la. hahaxx. wah. damn scarie mann. hahaaa. ten after she go doctor. is seems that she may have a like diesease. that like if she got a pimple thing on her face rite. if she touches it or like rubbs it and like wipes it on her hand rite. there will be like a pimple thing growing on her hand also la. so scarie lorr. i scared i kena that siaa. damn sway lorr. hahaax. then todae i stole two markers from the teacher. haha. i also dunno her name siaa. hahax. matilda taught me to call her cher. hahahaaa. instead of teacher. then she sae she got style!. hahaa. nonsense sia.hahaa. no offence horr. hahaa. haizz. im tired. [yawns]. gonna slp. nitex. o wait. dun wanna slp yet. got maths to do. so extra sia. exam some more next wk. haiz. hahaa.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind.9.00

happie daee

2005-04-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

hahaa. todae im just so happie sia. hahaa. i also dunno why. hahaa. well. todae. as normal. got skool. but only we followed fridae time table. hahaa. ten rites. we got our hieghts taken and stuff. hahaa. i so short kan. hahaa.. the when we going home that time. i meet sharifah. hahaa. ten we both went home by cab la. cuase she had to go home early todae. i also dunno why la. hahaa. so i was like back by 2. the earliest among my bros. hahaa. ten ritee. i go makan all la.ten i played my guitar!. hahaa. i can play one song readi lerh. hahaa. amazing siaa. hahaa. but my hand not so pain. although i use that picks thing. hahaax. then lyk noww. still got homework. but too lazy do siaa. so tired. hahax. but im in a good mood todae!. maybe because i talked to that person yesterdae. the one that told me. dun cry and stuff. hahaa. maybe thats why. cause that person never talked to me for so long readi. haaa.maybe la. why i so happie. hahaa. gtg nows. do home work! woOHOo!!

gris.patrick.gone in the wind 9.10pm

another day at skool

2005-04-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

hahaa. thanks to my fren. for helping me to do up my blog. hahaa. nice sia. i like lars. thanks horr. if you reading this. hahaax. aniwaes. well. todae i got my guitar!. hahax. nice sia. black in colour some more. hahaa. if only got green mann. hahaa. nicer. so sad. hahaa. aniwaes. i also dunno how to play the thing. hahaa. just anihow playing lorss. haha. nice sound. i happie. hahaa. well i todae learnt how to make a heart!. hahaa. frm caroline. haha. and that shok chen ar. got manual sia. hahaa. she even draw the thing. hahahaa. now she kan do la. she follow manual ma. hahaa. and then . todae got malay oral sia. wah. i also dunno wad to talk. when got the conversation part sia. haha. he talk to me in malay. i talk back in malay and english mixed. hahaa. nonsense lors. haha. hope i also pass on the dot la. hahaa. hmss. i got alot of tests this week sia. haiz. but i dun wanna study la. so tired. every day got skool. wake up 6. slp at. 12. haiz. but wat to do. haiz. thats the way it is. o ya. yesterday was that mrs chan burfdae sia. hahaa. wah. ten some more. todae got so many ppl missing sia. all go out of the skool during skool hours sia.nonsense lors. hahaa. ten the mrs das was like. if they are not in sight. i will have to call their parents. to report that they are missing. haha. farni lors. so amazing!. hahaax.

gris.patrick.gone in the wind.7.45pm

yummy!

2005-04-24T19:08:00.000+08:00

hahaa. todae we went for meeting mann. hahaa. before the meeting ritez. at the canteen we sang burfdae song for cecilia. hahaa. so farni sia. we were all being looked at mann. hahaa. farni sia. then we went for meeting la. haha. ten when we going home that time. we saw the mad women. hahaa. stupid la. hahaa. but this time she never talk to us la. haha ten. we went over to nicoles hse mann. damn nice sia. reminds me of someones hse also. haha. aniwae. we went over to her house to makan sushi. hahaa. nice sia. the mother make some more. hahaa. nice. hahaa. then we watched white chicks. hahaa. ten after that i went home together wif veron and ner. i went around selling the chatolic welfare tickets la. onli one soul bought two tickets sia. hahaa. hahaa. then i went home and stoned at the teevee. hahaa. ten now on com la. hahaa.

gris.patrick.7.05pm

burfdae gal

2005-04-23T21:30:00.000+08:00

hahax. i still haven do anithing to my newly created blog. hahaa. aniwae. todae ish my darling cecilias burfdae. hahaa. well. have a good day ok. hahaa. aniwae todae got oral sia. haiz. wah. damn shit lor. all screawed sia. hahaa. hopefully kan pass on the dot lorhs.hahaa. ten i and nerissa went for ava training todae with jared la. haha. damn farni lorhs. we dun even noe how to on the computer also. ten jared come and teach us. ahaaa. so farni sia. ten during mass. hahaa. we laugh so much la. hahaa. damn farni lorhs. ten rite. got this guy that came into the room la. then sae that an old ladi complain that the mike volume too soft. hahaa. farni sia. hahaa. well gtg now. do proposal. hahax.

gris.patrick.9.30pm.hahax

the first dayy

2005-04-22T19:56:00.000+08:00

todae ish the day. i finally created a damn blog sia.muahaaa.amazing!.hahaa. ok. heres going out to cecila ok.happie in advance burfday. hahaaa.enjoy mAN. hahaa

gris.patrick.7.55pm